After getting out of my teenage years, I’ve spent almost a decade of my life in a sort of musical identity crisis. For years, I’ve lived through those CD compilations exchanged with friends and I treasured every single one of them because music was expensive and difficult to find back then. Then Spotify came and I’ve basically spent YEARS listening to the same old stuff (with occasional new entries) because every time I listened to something new I never liked it.
I even had some arguments with friends during the years because I didn’t want to spend money on live concerts since I liked maybe 2 or 3 songs from those popular artists. I was angry with myself because I couldn’t pick a favorite band or a favorite singer, I didn’t have a “style”, I didn’t have a musical identity. I was listening to just about random genres and songs without feeling specific emotions.
A couple of months ago I had a similar conversation with my friend Habbi, she kindly shared with me her compilation and I started saving songs I really enjoyed. This brought me on a memory lane and I don’t even know how but I ended up looking at the Spotify profiles of old Scandinavian metal bands I listened to while in high school.
My then-boyfriend introduced me to Nightwish back in 2005 (I think) and I remember listening to their songs in pure awe. I even enjoyed the new album with the new vocalist when it was released in 2007 and I remember buying random metal magazines only to be able to read some articles about my favorite band (you know, when the internet wasn’t very accessible yet). I don’t know what happened then, but basically, after high school, I stopped listening to music and I went through that unfortunate decade I mentioned above. I stopped following my favorite bands and keeping myself informed on their album releases. Until a couple of months ago.
Finishing my thesis has been such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and I felt like I was finally free to pursue my long-time interests now buried under years of university studies and useless social media usage. I went back digging the history of piracy and similar nautical history stuff and, surprise, surprise, I went back and listened to the complete Nightwish discography (now into Sabaton since their new album is out in July!). And I kinda felt myself again.
I wouldn’t label myself as a metalhead but it turns out that what actually makes my bones shake (in a good way) is symphonic metal.
I still listen to just about everything (pop, rap, Celtic music, music soundtracks, etc.) but I feel like I’ve finally found my musical identity and I know what band I’d love to see live in concert. It just took me a decade.
Here is a playlist of my absolute favorite Nightwish songs.