I didn’t plan to write this post, actually, I’m supposed to be writing my thesis right now, but you know when you have something in mind and you can’t just ignore it and go ahead.
I’ve never actually talked about it here, but my biggest goal is to finish my 150-pages thesis by the end of Summer in order to graduate next Fall, but, let me tell you, it’s hard. There are some days I’d just want to curl in my bed and cry because I’m frustrated by everything and, even if I’m an introvert, it isn’t nice staying all day long glued to my laptop at home, alone. One of my favourite things to do during my lunch break has always been playing some LOTRO and catch up with emails and blogs at my desk. However, I’d like to spend at least my lunch break away from my desk now that I don’t have to study anymore, but those activities can only be done on my laptop (I know I can check blogs on my phone, but it isn’t the same for me).
Today I forced myself to stay away from my desk, giving up to my daily dose of LOTRO, and I managed to read a couple of blog posts and watch some short videos on YouTube…in half an hour, then I didn’t know what to do with my time, it was 2:30 PM and I didn’t want to go back to my thesis yet, so I thought “I could check out Instagram for 10-15 minutes”.
I ended up emerging from my phone at 3:05 PM. I’ve spent 35 minutes on Instagram without realizing it and without even. Sure, having 2 different accounts takes away more time, but I didn’t even scroll my bookstagram feed for more than 5-6 photos usually, I still engage with people there, but the one where I try to stay up to date is my personal one and it takes a lot. Especially if you’re just a bit OCD and you have to see all the Stories (don’t worry, I still skip some of them!). In these 35 minutes, however, I didn’t even share a photo nor a Story and I felt exhausted and ready to take a nap, while in my previous 30 minutes I almost got bored and over-recharged.
As I said to a friend of mine a couple of weeks ago, I love blogs because that’s a self-paced kind of feed. I scroll Feedly when I have some time, see what interests me, and I save it for later. You can’t do that with social media because they are a constant stream of updates. I follow less than 100 people on my personal Instagram profile, but still, it takes me ages to check out their updates. I don’t follow just for following, I follow who I actually care to see in my feed.
This post is a bit useless because I don’t have an actual solution to this, I don’t want to quit Instagram, but I don’t know how to avoid the overwhelm it causes me. Today I’ve lost 35 minutes of my life without even realizing it!